My type of PTSD

By definition, PTSD doesn't really go's just that not everyone understands that I have PTSD.  I didn't know it myself until I heard my therapist say it off-hand.  Like it was a given.  And that it was okay.

Just like I didn't realize that I had 'depression' until she said it.  I thought I was grieving.  But I also wasn't functioning as well.  So "acute depression" it is.  It's interesting that we tend to stay away from 'labels' and 'diagnoses' even as medical professionals.  But, years later, I can say that I had depression.  And that it was okay.  I'm okay.

Ordinary, Extraordinary Jane Austen

One book I came across was Ordinary, Extraordinary Jane Austen written by Deborah Hopkinson and illustrated by Qin Leng.  It's no secret that I'm an Austenite.  I even endured that film about her with Anne Hathaway (Becoming Jane).  And I took a course on Austen as a grad student that was purely for the delight of discussing all of her works. 

So I've always known that Jane Austen was extraordinary.

Love is Love is Love is Love

I thought Love was a beautiful and inclusive ode to the many ways that we see love in our every day.  What I loved most was how tactile everything felt in the story.  De La Pena spun his words so I could see every image in my mind--besides what was on the page--and what's more I could feel the scent in the air, hear the music notes being played.

First Pages: A Wrinkle in Time

"It was a dark and stormy night.

In her attic bedroom Margaret Murry, wrapped in an old patchwork quilt, sat on the foot of her bed an watched the trees tossing in the frenzied lashing of the wind. Behind the tress clouds scudded frantically across the sky.  Every few moments the moon ripped through them, creating wraith-like shadows that raced along the ground.

The house shook.

Wrapped in her quilt, Meg shook."

" A Wrinkle in Time by Madeleine L'Engle

Long Way Down

There have been two school shootings since I started reading this book.  Two. 

And Long Way Down is a quick and easy read.  However....I put it down after the first school shooting which was by a 12-year-old.  Someone pretty much the same age as my Mini Me.

And then there was an even bigger shooting, more lives lost senselessly.

In Long Way Down, Jason Reynolds tackles gun violence in a different way—from the point of view of a teenage boy who feels as if he has no other choice but to avenge his brother's senseless death.  It makes sense....and it doesn't. 

Valentines Day Cards Upcycling

Can I tell you the little things that I love about being a mom?  Besides the fact that my girls are perfect (but not) and that they bring so much joy (overall) and they own every single piece of my heart. 

I like helping with Valentine's Day cards.  And Halloween treat bags.  And when they were younger (or far more many times with Mini Me than Little Lion), with birthday treat bags for parties.  It's fun.  And it's a privilege. #ILoveBeingAMom

National Women Physicians Day 2018

Last year, I wrote about the many women physicians who have inspired me along my own journey, most importantly my mom.  This year, I'd like to write about the many patients who inspire me.

There have been so many families who have let me into their lives.  Too many to count, so many that share the little things that matter so much.  I feel honored to be a part of that, a tiny part of helping out their kids.  And too many details for me to write without invading privacy. 

But let me just say this: thank you. 

Thank your for the privilege and the trust you put into us as your child's doctor.

The Book Was Better

I'm currently watching Catching Fire for the first time.  Yes, even though I've owned the DVD since it was released (years ago), I've never watched it.  Or Mockingjay 1 or 2.  Why? Because I knew it would be tough to watch. 

But since I did a recent re-read of the series--and may or may not be delving into the Gadge** ship--I've been trying to get myself to watch Catching Fire

Multicultural Children's Book Day 2018

Pattan's Pumpkin tells a similar story as Noah's ark, though the setting is in a valley below the Sahyadri Mountains in Southern India.  Pattan and his wife live in harmony with the animals and people around them, and Pattan shares his food with everyone in his village.  When great rains start, he looks out to an ever-enlarging pumpkin in his field for a solution.  As a community, the animals help to hollow out the pumpkin so they can use it to survive the flood. 

Featured Fridays: Molly Bear Foundation

"In caring for Molly, insurance only went so far-her friends and family helped make up the difference by raising money and making personal donations. The Molly Bear Foundation, named in loving memory of Molly Elizabeth, is a community devoted to taking care of one another. The goal of the foundation is to pay it forward by providing supplemental financial assistance to families raising children with Trisomy 18." ~ Erin Brown


Mix It Up AKA The Friendship Orange

Little Lion’s second grade teachers have started a new thing this year and I love it.  I don’t know what they call it, but I’m officially calling it “Mix It Up”.  Each month, they are placed at certain lunch tables on Wednesdays and that is their Wednesday lunch group.  The teachers mix up the kids so they sit with that group on Wednesdays only.  The rest of the week, they get to choose where to sit.

It’s a brilliant idea.  Little Lion is making new friends and reconnecting with old ones.

Featured Fridays: The Ruthie Lou Foundation

"The Ruthie Lou Foundation was inspired by the love, care, and support that my daughter's team of health professionals showed my family. We were guided through our time with Ruthie Lou and it has made all the difference as we navigate our life without her. In creating this non-profit, I wanted to offer the same compassion to other families experiencing the loss of their beloved baby." ~Amie Lands

Discovering My Heart

“Your heart is like the ocean, mysterious and dark.”
~ Bob Dylan

This quote is on one of the cards in our Macy calendar this month. I’ve been taking the quotes to heart this year, trying to find meaning in each one, just as I meant for my little family to do when we were making them together last year.